Dear Reader,
As this year comes to an end, so does the poll I set up for the title of The Big One (a novel I'm currently writing). So if you haven't yet voted, make sure you do before 01-01-11. Because every vote counts. --->;
Okay, election speech over, now on to more a important topics i.e. my self-confidence.
So I've noticed that lately I haven't been so hesitant to proclaim myself a writer or admit that I'm writing a novel or two. This is kind of a new thing for me, despite the impression that one might get from my blog. I'm generally quite a shy person and usually avoid questions related to my writing. I don't know exactly when this change began but I know it definitely has something to do with this blog. It might also have something to do with the fact that in these last few weeks I've been taking to uni, my main notebook for "The Big One" (see below for pictures) and the recyclable-folder (I'm as "green" as my bedroom walls) containing the printed version of all that I've typed up so far for this particular novel.
Now another thing you, dear reader, should know about me is that I usually don't put up much of a fight. Confession: Fights - I absolutely hate them, avoid them at all cost and don't even like the concept of them (except maybe in novels like The Lord of the Rings
and kickass video games like Assassin's Creed: Brotherhood
or Prince of Persia
) So when some of my uni-friends, Collective Codename: The Sisterhood, lovingly began pestering me to let them read some of my work ... well you can imagine how that turned out. But the comments that I got afterwards made me think that maybe, just maybe my friends aren't just saying all that so as not to hurt my feelings, maybe this stuff that I write isn't so bad, that maybe I should consider getting it published.
However, there is one thing I know for sure: I don't want "The Big One" to be the first thing I ever publish. The reasonings behind this decision are complex and even I don't fully understand it, but I'll try to explain it anyway:
"The Big One" is a work in progress and something that would change and grow and get better as I get older and, hopefully, wiser. It's an outlet for me into which I channel all that I observe in my surroundings, all that I feel and desire on the inside, all the irrelevant thoughts bumping around inside my skull and all that can be found in my imagination. And what I do is I "curl and crush it all into to a tight knit ball inside myself" and then "splatter it all across the empty pages that lie in my lap". So you see, other than being ginormously personal to me, it would be fair to neither my characters nor myself if "The Big One" is published before the story or I'm is fully actualised.
If you can properly understand all that, then I congratulate you on gaining more insight into my personality than I have.
Now I think that this is more than enough confessions and contemplations for me today.
Until next time,
Nida
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| THE notebook |
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| a Random page - so you can see the state of my thoughts |
and kickass video games like Assassin's Creed: Brotherhood or Prince of Persia) So when some of my uni-friends, Collective Codename: The Sisterhood, lovingly began pestering me to let them read some of my work ... well you can imagine how that turned out. But the comments that I got afterwards made me think that maybe, just maybe my friends aren't just saying all that so as not to hurt my feelings, maybe this stuff that I write isn't so bad, that maybe I should consider getting it published.However, there is one thing I know for sure: I don't want "The Big One" to be the first thing I ever publish. The reasonings behind this decision are complex and even I don't fully understand it, but I'll try to explain it anyway:
"The Big One" is a work in progress and something that would change and grow and get better as I get older and, hopefully, wiser. It's an outlet for me into which I channel all that I observe in my surroundings, all that I feel and desire on the inside, all the irrelevant thoughts bumping around inside my skull and all that can be found in my imagination. And what I do is I "curl and crush it all into to a tight knit ball inside myself" and then "splatter it all across the empty pages that lie in my lap". So you see, other than being ginormously personal to me, it would be fair to neither my characters nor myself if "The Big One" is published before the story or I'm is fully actualised.
If you can properly understand all that, then I congratulate you on gaining more insight into my personality than I have.
Now I think that this is more than enough confessions and contemplations for me today.
Until next time,
Nida
Hmm, I kind of understand what you mean by not wanting "The Big One" to be your first. It's your baby, and is growing and maturing just as you are. The unexpected twists and turns that life brings, are what sculpt and mould the words on that blank page. When your mind changes, so does the story - it will never be completely finished because... life goes on. I wish you all the best with it and the others you may have up your sleeve. =)
ReplyDeleteJazakallah Khair, Samia. It's really sweet that you understand what I'm saying. And best of luck with your own novels. :-D
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